Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Why I blog

I blog so I can think.

So that in the midst of chaos and reality, crying and poop, I can think.

I write so that all these thoughts that swirl around in my head can finally be laid to rest in the simple, black lines of Times New Roman font.

At least, that was why I started this blog. As a fountain of extraneous thoughts and worries. So that other momma's and friends could join with me on a journey that you can never really pack for.

But now it seems I blog less for myself and more for Bjorn. I blog as a way to remember all those baby things that he does today that may be gone tomorrow. Frankly, I blog because I am too damn lazy to sit down and write these things in his baby book.

But this month something strange happened. I didn't blog. (Did you notice?)

I didn't even check other blogs but maybe twice this month.

And a funny thing happened.

All those hilarious, crazy-cute things my Bjorn did? I watched them. Just watched. And while I was watching, I didn't think 'Oooooh, that is soooo cute. How can I word that in my next blog post?'

Instead, I watched as he learned how to put on The Hubs shoes and shuffle around the living room. And I watched as he dragged a thick cookbook across the floor to put it next to the ottoman. Where he used it as a stepping stool to climb onto the ottoman. And then off the ottoman. And then back on again. And . . . . well, you get the idea.

See, I didn't plan on taking a break from blogging. I just sorta fell into it. Just as writing everyday had become natural, after a while, a break from writing felt natural, too.

And maybe that is for the best.

I commented to a fellow blogger how I was absent from my Bloggy Friend's lives recently and she replied, 'So what? You're not just writing about life now. You're living it.'

Not that you can't normally do both. But this month, I couldn't.

(Ironically, this is also the month when I bought a laptop so I could write more. Ha.)

This month was a great break from blogging. During Bjorn's morning naps I usually brew yet another pot of coffee and race to my computer for some catch-up reading and writing. Lately, instead, I would put on a workout DVD and afterwards treat myself to a long, hot shower. Or curl up with a good book. Or call a friend I haven't talked to in a while. Sew. Research. Relax.

It was nice. Not a permanent break. But nice.

See, I miss writing. I miss blogging. And I miss all of you - my bloggy network of Momma's and friends and crafters and cooks. But I like knowing now that I can drag myself away from it and everything will still be ok. That while I need my friends and the network I have out here in BlogWorld, I don't need to be tied to a computer.

And, crazy enough, knowing that I don't need to write everyday. . . . makes me want to write even more.

A wise man once said 'If you love something, let it go free. If it doesn't come back, you never had it. If it comes back, love it forever.'

And I will love you all forever.

3 comments:

Erinn said...

So glad I am not the only one! I was feeling guilty that all my blogs have been few and far between AND all about Sloane lately...but I hope some day she'll be able to read it and enjoy those precious memories with me. Taking care of yourself is important and the best thing you can do for your family...happy mom, happy family! On a side note, I've been doing Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred again...loving it! I can get a 25 minute workout AND long shower accomplished during one of Sloane's naps!

Mommy This and That said...

It happens. Glad to see you are back...and guess what? Love you too!

Tamara said...

:) So glad you had a good month, so glad to 'hear your voice' via blog. I have missed you, too! I keep thinking that I need to blog again, if only so YOU (my only fan)can read my updates! But then, Allie does something funny, my schoolbooks stare up at me, or the washing machine buzzes, and I'm off again....