Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Being a Mother = Dealing with Guilt

I gotta admit. . . . I'm feeling a little guilty.

I just got back from two days on the road, and I am on call for today. But have not been called out yet to work. And, still, I took Bjorn to daycare.

Daddy asked me. "What are you going to do today? Why don't you just keep him until you get called to work?"

Because I want to take a long shower in my own bath. Because I want to sew and write and finish the cleaning and the laundry and the schtuff that was started last week and (thanks Hubs!!) he worked on a little while I was gone, but it's impossible to get it done with a cute, little baby plodding along after you.

And, yes, I know that cleaning is a daily thing and what is most important is spending time with my Bjorn.

That's why I'm feeling a little guilty. Because I am taking a Me day. Even though I was just gone for two days.

In my defense, I have no more work scheduled for the rest of the month. So there.

And now that that is off my back (whew!), I am going to enjoy this day. I think.

4 comments:

John, Becky and Olivia said...

Girl, I hear you. I had Monday off for President's Day and sent O off to daycare so I could get a massage, mani/pedi, and lunch with J. I felt guilty but needed the day for me. I think promptly fell asleep on the couch for an hour before I went and picked her up. IT'S OK! (I have to keep telling myself that too.)

Preggo said...

I know - you and I have talked about this a million times, but it still hits me everytime. How much time for myself is too much? And it IS OK!!! (We will keep telling each other. . . . )

Amber Page Writes said...

My husband and I took Friday off, and sent the little one to daycare, just to have an us day...

It's okay to take time for yourself. Really. It is.

John, Becky and Olivia said...

I was reading something about how we need to have the kids adapt to the parents' lives not the other way around. I think that's a good idea (apparently it's part of the French mentality when it comes to raising kids - and even though I'm not a huge fan of many French things I think this makes sense). Then we won't have kids who grow up all coddled and spoiled. It's good for them.

I like Amber's comment. I think John and I are going to take a couple of days to go to Spring Training games without O. =)